I am fixated On a certain kind Of imagined sea creature That doesn’t exist yet, But has also Been clawing through the muck On the pond scum floor Of my stomach, Always. It loosens clots of dirt in my belly, And is made of white-hot metals That repel the water around it, Orbs of burning silver Existing always in clouds of steam I think I saw it. While I was waking up The other morning I imagined you without your hand, Your face crusted over Like a bejeweled lobster’s belly. And I recognized that creature in you. The one that I have always known And has simultaneously Never been here yet This creature takes metals Into its mouth They singe its tongue And with its tusks It molds them Into armor, A hardened membrane. It tries to gather up as much as it can, Builds weapons from it too. Weapons it can use To scrape through the bottom Of the scum veiled pond floor, Into that deeper part, Underneath the skin of the ground, Where there’s a sound Like a voice stretched to the loudest vibration it can make Echoing In the painful silence that comes Right after something very loud has quieted It attempts to surface this way, Without realizing That it is only venturing further Into the place Where it was never imagined To live in that silent space Just before waking.